Perception of time

Time is not defined. Time is an illusion of the perception, you don't really realize time until it's past, you cannot feel the time, you can only look back.

I used to be so sad till I met the one, my life changed dramatically, I was the happiest in the world despite our problems.
Things went downhill, arguments arose, problems arose, we still hung on to each other. It's amazing what love can do.

I've made this blog very depressing do its time I change that, by not talking more. I however am probably not going to blog here, I just wanted to say no thing, which is the reason why I am blogging now as we speak.
Sleeping, sleeping, something I always loved, I now hate going to bed and whole in bed, I hate getting out of bed. 3.31 am, I'm waiting for something that's not coming. I want it to come now! I don't want to sleep because I want it now. When I'm sleeping, I don't want to wake up, because in my dreams, I already have what I'm waiting for. Perhaps, a longer sleep would be nice. But I guess, now now is not the time, unfortunately.

In and out.
Marcus-engineer.net84.net

Smashed into crumbles

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What is a sorry when none cares?
What is a sorry when none means it?
What is a sorry when you it's such rare and heavy word yet so light?
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Some people always apologize and never keep
Some people don't apologize at all
Some people rarely apologize but when they do, they really mean it
Some people rarely apologize, but when they do, they mean it
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When people get upset they forget everything
When people get upset they done care anymore
When people get upset, promises don't matter anymore
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I am a sensitive man. I Am beyond emotional.
Missing someone you love, being so unbelievably eager to talk to them only to find out you're gonna argue.. Can be a very painful face plant.

Sucide

My sucidal thoughts are getting way worse lately.
I can tell I am close to doing the unexpected.

Project presentation

So.. 

today we had a massive presentation in university and for that we had recorded a short video of how our product works..
It's nothing too fancy... I was in charge of the software development but ended up with quite a lot of electronic as well.

Lost in space

I really feel like crying
I'm all alone
Lonely
Sad, depressed and exhausted

Strange feeling

I'm all torn into pieces and worn out, there's no strength left. I am desperately trying to stay strong.
Everyday I fight myself and my own emotions.
I feel worse than ever.

Even so ...
One phone call was all I needed ..
I got a glimpse of happiness back.
I am still worn and torn but atleast now I have something.
There's something I can keep my sight locked on, something that can bring me through my emotions, something for me to pull myself through with.

I am very lonely though, very lonely.
I'm in desperate needs of you. I need you.