Deadzone #2

Backed down

It took me a lot to back down, I backed down, APOLOGIZED, talked and were nice but I still got shit for it. I was asked how I think I did, I replied bad. I wasn't nice but considering how I feel and felt yesterday, I had been doing a miracle.

I'm back into the deadzone. Then I got forced to stay in the conversation because otherwise things would've gotten worse.

My heart aches, shakes, shivers and trembles.

I cannot find peace, I cannot relax or feel at ease. I cannot stop thinking, I can't have a nice time anymore.
I tried to talk, I got mistaken for being rude and an asshole.
I don't know how to deal with this anymore, I can't take more pain, I just want to be taken care of and be loved. I don't want to stay strong anymore :'(
I am dying inside.

I just want you by my side.